learning to breathe.

hi.

I, currently feel impeccably drained. the last week or so may have been pretty monochrome, but the underlying-old issues, the pent-up stress buried beneath everything has been killing me. anyway tho. updates here we go (:
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3/5/2009
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maison joined me as a fellow TeachersHelper, so having him around as opposed to flyingsolo like the week before was a helluva relief- I honestly DO enjoy watching over the tiny tikes from the Standard2 class, but having someone just lifted whatev weight that came with the responsibility I guess (: the restve the day consisted of engulfing in McDs, and gas-station-runs to buy waffles ;P talked to michael and clarence till 2am.
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4/5/2009
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ClassPhotoDay. seeing as were all seniors now and are finally granted the privilage of DESIGNING our own pages in the yearbooks, it didnt matter how we looked in the photos as itd never be displayed anywhere public. despite this however, us vainpans put extracare into our appearance ;P near-candid pics attained from christabel's cam;
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the usual scene.
l-r; tija strawberrybigspenderr, me, sean siumai, khairi nostrils, imran monkeyboy.

bigspenderr, your Maoni Hotposh loves you!

have seriously lost count at the amountve pics/vidoes of me caught sleeping in class kay -_-

le 5Beta familia.
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ordered McDs while still in the van so itd have already arrived when I get home ;X went for PrivateMathTuition at shalenes, ate the maggigoreng daddy bought for me, and talked to jiarong and clarence till 1am. Im sorry for hurting you jiarong:( darrenloks call woke me up at 4am so was exhausted emotionally and physically by the time I went back to bed at 5ish am.
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5/5/2009
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HAPPY SEXY TUJUHBELAS-th, khairi skinneh nostrils (:

I laugh the hardest with you everysingleday and vow to CONTINUE practising my gangstamalay/ attempts on annialaiting you with pinknikebottles &books ;D have a good one, rocketship!
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pretty mundane day, yawn. talked to clarence and jiarong till 3am.
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6/5/2009
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pontenged a few classes, killing time with tija and farahA in the library. calista darling got us Indomee delivered HEEHEE ;D temaned clarence(who was walking around with a broken broom btw) for the last 2periods, walking around like idiots trying to find a nice, cold place only settling towards the last halfhour of school. danesh, a form3 SriSedaya-an in my van surprisingly initiated a convo(after weeks of pure silence) so chatted with him all the way home.
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had to recline zhengweis offer for a much needed drinkingsession cause of math tuition -____- mom was in Indonesia on business, and daddy plain forgot, so was forced to WALK to tuition that evening. it may be 5mins away but bloodyhell, do YOU like walking? ;/ this oldman who lives a streetaway spotted me, and LECTURED me the whole way there. sure it was nice of him to be so concerned about my safety but, freaky much! accidentally fellasleep when I put ethanbaby to bed, so ended up bunking at his room, neglecting my cellphone.
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Im not going to say any more than "I regret TRYING to help you, good-bloody-luck from here on out" as I am sick and tired of the entire ordeal.
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8/5/2009
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was supposed to follow shalene to MinesWonderland(as her mom somehow had the entireplace BOOKEDOUT) but had school so.. sigh, sorry babe:( clarence bought me brekkie from McDs and I found it ubermanis of him. ate McDs the SECONDTIME when hanis and natliew ordered, and it left me feeling like a grotesque pig :X they ordered during Bio so I literally RAN outtve the class telling teacher I had ' a female problem,' DEVOURED my burger, and RAN back to class, haha. talked to calista and clarence till 1am.
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9/5/2009
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wokeup with a fever but dismissed it. felt like cicakcrap so was restless the entireday! went to AC afterschool with tija, calista, jean-ni and sam where we devoured shared plates of Indomee ;D initially planned to go home after that, but calista suggested we go shopping, so spontaniously agreed. sam and I killedtime at zhengwei's as I had to wait for calistas cheerpractice to end. was feeling so horrible and sleepy, I fell asleep on the couch.
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wokeup with a shock.
the MAID screams "zhengwei pergi mana?!!" as the room was empty.
I groggily make my way to his kitchen, giving his grandma making tea a shock.
I blurt numerous apologies, still groggy.
halfway on the stairs to his room, I almost collide with a man carrying a LADDER ABOVE HIS HEAD, jumping in shock.
.. bloody MINI HEARTATTACKS okay. made zhengwei SWEAR he wouldnt leave me alone in his house ever again, regardless of whether or not Im sleeping! -_-
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had dinner at calista's, and the bothve us wentaround Taipan and SS15 hunting with sam, but to no avail :( was home by 11.30pm and was exhausted. forgot my HOUSEKEYS, my cellphone battery DIED, and the doorbell wasnt working so was locked outtve my house! tried to climb over my gate but couldnt. yelled my lungs out but nobody heard me, so I resorted to borrowing a neighbours cellphone to call my mom. fucking.. UQAUSDHGDHGC. was burning with stress and fever when I entered the house, but talking to clarence till 12.30am seriously calmed me down.
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9/5/2009
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overslept so rushed through my morning shower/routine. went to shalenes for PrivateMathTuition at 1pm, and chilled there abit before leaving to Bangsar with her. got our eyebrows done together before saying our goodbyes.
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met simson at Delicious around 4pm ;

.. and caughtup with him throughout the day. was in a RUSH to find an angklelengthdress so went into practically every store. thankyou Mr.Fantastic, for being so patient and sucha bighelp♥ got home at 7pm, and rushed to get dressed.
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tija picked me up at 9-ish pm, and was at RitzCarlton, KL for calista's sister's 18th birthday.

cinaman wallpaper ;) *insidething* HAHAHA

joanne

darlinggggs!

*more pics to come
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shortdresses were against the dresscode, so felt TRES weird in my anklelength dress all night ><>
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10/5/2009(yesterday)
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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

I truly appreciate everything youve done, and given to me. Im so happy we're so close now and your advice and opinion trumps everyone else's. thankyou, for accepting me for all my faults and for supporting who I am. I may not show it as often as I should but, Im sorry. I love you mom.
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it was my last sunday spent as a TeachersHelper :(

.. spot tinyme &maison amongst the sea of ahdorable kids!
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wanted to make brekkie-in-bed for mom but overslept ;S went to Jaya33 and ate Japanese for lunch, stubbornly eating my yummy MnMFrosty(with extra MnMs thanks to me being extra*cough*nice to the waiter) right after, making me feel SO DAMN STUFFED I thought I was going to EXPLODE. was dragged to an AlfaRomeo showcase, and planned to be extranice to mom, but by the time I wokeup from my nap she had already left to Indonesia for business again- fucking sad. talked to clarence, read, and konged at 2.30am.
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... cant be arsed to elaborate much on today, so its keypoints is as follows: 1)woke up in a room smelling like friedchicken(causing me to freakout trying to think where the hell it was coming from o.o), 2)made a sandwhich for clarence to cheer him up ;D 3)my darlings and I were in extrabitchy-mode allday & 4)I bloody WALKED TO TUITION, again. getting extra lazehhh now, mm. goodbye people (:

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